Human emotions and motivations are strange things. I want to write. I want to write well. I want people to read the things I write and to enjoy them and maybe even be inspired by them. But I don’t want to work at it. I want it to just magically happen with no effort or exercise on my part.
I know there are things I can do to improve my writing. There are lessons and drills and practice stories but I don’t want to do any of that. I want to write what’s in my head and have it be great.
I had my first fan fiction beta read today. I was uncomfortably shocked at how much tweaking my story needed. There were so many little things I need to do to make my writing more polished. They are all things I should have seen but didn’t. Was I just too close to the story? Is that why you have others read your work? Do all writers have this happen? Is it something I can fix? Will practice make perfect?
I don’t know but I aim to find out. I want to keep writing. I want to improve, even if I have to work at it. I will probably write some real stinkers over the years but hopefully I will come through it all with better writing skills. I guess we will see.