Human emotions and motivations are strange things. I want to write. I want to write well. I want people to read the things I write and to enjoy them and maybe even be inspired by them. But I don’t want to work at it. I want it to just magically happen with no effort or exercise on my part.
I know there are things I can do to improve my writing. There are lessons and drills and practice stories but I don’t want to do any of that. I want to write what’s in my head and have it be great.
I had my first fan fiction beta read today. I was uncomfortably shocked at how much tweaking my story needed. There were so many little things I need to do to make my writing more polished. They are all things I should have seen but didn’t. Was I just too close to the story? Is that why you have others read your work? Do all writers have this happen? Is it something I can fix? Will practice make perfect?
I don’t know but I aim to find out. I want to keep writing. I want to improve, even if I have to work at it. I will probably write some real stinkers over the years but hopefully I will come through it all with better writing skills. I guess we will see.
Ladyrebecca's Musings and Ramblings 
The RRR says…yes, yes, yes, yes, and yes. You’ve hit the nail on the head with all your questions. MRS. RRR says.. “memorize a passage of about 10 verses from the Bible… old King James… It’s pure poetry and always absolutely grammatically correct. I’ll bet you find it “magically” makes your writing skills better.” I agree. Worked for Abe Lincoln… read the Gettysburg address.
I want to write too, but I think I stink. Time will tell I guess.